Melissa
07-25-2009, 04:14 AM
I just found out today that my grandfather passed away on July 9th of 2009.
He was 81
I will never have the chance to say I love you, or even the chance to say goodbye.
This has hit me especially hard due to the fact that he is my grandfather on my fathers side, and I have not been in touch with that side of my family in more than 15 years.
I lay the blame on my father, I know I should not, but if you all knew the story behind it, you might understand.
My parents divorced when my sister and I were 4 and 3.
I loved my father with all I had, he was everything to me.
But over the years he stopped calling unless I called him, he stopped sending cards on birthdays until there was no word from him at all. My mother and sister came to hate him and would always talk bad about him, but I always stood up for him.
When I was 11 I went to stay with my grandma on my mothers side up in Seattle, Wa and the first thing I did was call my father and asking if he would come and get me so that I could see him. I'll remember to the day that I die what he said. He said I will clear my schedule and call you right back. So I waited and waited and waited, waited by the phone for 7 days, I would not even go outside in case the phone rang, but it never did, he never called.
I went home feeling unloved and was to stubborn to call and ask what happened, I was afraid he might say that he just didn't want to see me. Well stubborn (from both my father and me) has now turned into 15 years and all that has gotten me is a stranger that is my father, a man who has never even met his two grandchildren that are now 11 and 12.
Because of this I just lost my grandfather, and I was not aware of it until 15 days after the fact. I have been saying to myself that I should get in touch with my grandparents as they are not going to live forever, now it is too late to make things right between my grandfather and me, I have to live with that.
Sorry this is an unhappy thread, but my best friend who is also my grandmother on my mothers side, I can't take my grief to, she is fighting to stay alive herself and is slowly dying of cancer, and she does not need anything else to worry about.
I just needed to get it off my chest.
I will say I am so sorry, I love you and I will miss you grandpa, I just wish I could have said this years sooner.
RIP: Ross Cameron
1928-2009
YouTube - "Here Comes Goodbye" - Rascal Flatts Official Music Video
He was 81
I will never have the chance to say I love you, or even the chance to say goodbye.
This has hit me especially hard due to the fact that he is my grandfather on my fathers side, and I have not been in touch with that side of my family in more than 15 years.
I lay the blame on my father, I know I should not, but if you all knew the story behind it, you might understand.
My parents divorced when my sister and I were 4 and 3.
I loved my father with all I had, he was everything to me.
But over the years he stopped calling unless I called him, he stopped sending cards on birthdays until there was no word from him at all. My mother and sister came to hate him and would always talk bad about him, but I always stood up for him.
When I was 11 I went to stay with my grandma on my mothers side up in Seattle, Wa and the first thing I did was call my father and asking if he would come and get me so that I could see him. I'll remember to the day that I die what he said. He said I will clear my schedule and call you right back. So I waited and waited and waited, waited by the phone for 7 days, I would not even go outside in case the phone rang, but it never did, he never called.
I went home feeling unloved and was to stubborn to call and ask what happened, I was afraid he might say that he just didn't want to see me. Well stubborn (from both my father and me) has now turned into 15 years and all that has gotten me is a stranger that is my father, a man who has never even met his two grandchildren that are now 11 and 12.
Because of this I just lost my grandfather, and I was not aware of it until 15 days after the fact. I have been saying to myself that I should get in touch with my grandparents as they are not going to live forever, now it is too late to make things right between my grandfather and me, I have to live with that.
Sorry this is an unhappy thread, but my best friend who is also my grandmother on my mothers side, I can't take my grief to, she is fighting to stay alive herself and is slowly dying of cancer, and she does not need anything else to worry about.
I just needed to get it off my chest.
I will say I am so sorry, I love you and I will miss you grandpa, I just wish I could have said this years sooner.
RIP: Ross Cameron
1928-2009
YouTube - "Here Comes Goodbye" - Rascal Flatts Official Music Video